(Self-correction: "I mean I don't even — whatever.") *Paragraph 9:* It's the shame. It's like this hot thing in my throat. I want to go back and not buy the coffee. But I know I would. I’d buy it again because I’m selfish. I’m just a selfish kid who got raised to be a soldier but ended up being nothing. Just a consumer. Just a mouth that eats and doesn't give anything back. *Paragraph 10:* I dont know how to fix it. I dont think you can fix it. You just live with it until you forget again. Then you see another picture and it starts all over.