I seriously just need to get this off my chest because it's 3:47 AM and I’m staring at my ceiling feeling like absolute garbage. Like, I stayed up for HOURS, again, just scrolling through other designers’ portfolios. And it’s not even like I’m looking for inspiration, you know? It’s pure, unadulterated masochism. One minute I'm like, "Oh, that's a cool use of negative space," and the next I'm like, "Why the HELL don't *my* clients let me do anything that cool?" Their work is so slick, so... award-winning. Mine feels like I’m perpetually stuck in the B-tier, churning out stuff that's "fine." Perfectly fine. Which, to be honest, feels worse than being terrible sometimes, because at least terrible means there’s room for improvement, right? Fine just means... you exist. And the worst part isn't even the inadequacy, although that’s a big chunk of it. It’s the guilt. The GUILT of knowing I’ve got actual paying work due tomorrow, stuff that needs a fresh brain, and instead I’ve spent my entire "sleep window" basically flagellating myself with other people's success stories. I could be getting ahead, I could be resting, I could even be *learning* something useful instead of just hate-scrolling through some twenty-something’s Behance that looks like it belongs in a museum. Like, *j’en ai marre*, I’m sick of it. And then the sun starts to peek, and I'm like, "Great, another day where I'm running on fumes and a potent cocktail of espresso and self-loathing." LOL. But not really, you know? It’s this cycle, and I don't know how to break it. I close my laptop and promise myself "never again" but then BAM, it's 1 AM and my finger just magically finds the scroll bar. It’s like a weird addiction. I tell myself it's "market research" or "staying current" but it’s really just me poking at a bruise that never heals. And then I wake up feeling like a zombie, my brain just fuzzy, and I’m less productive because I'm so damn tired, which then just feeds the whole "you're not good enough" narrative. It’s exhausting. And I just... I need to stop. But how? Seriously, any tips besides "put your phone down," because that’s not working.