i swear to god i'm gonna lose my mind with this whole family thing. like my parents are getting older right and they expect me to basically plan literally EVERYTHING for them. all the holidays, all the birthdays, even just like sunday dinner sometimes. it's so much freaking work. i mean it's fine for like christmas cause i actually like doing that sometimes but it's gotten to the point where it's not even fun anymore. it's just a chore. and everyone else just shows up and eats and leaves. like my brother, greg, he just rolls in with his perfect family and acts like he's doing me a favor by being there. my sister just brings a store-bought cake and acts like she baked it herself. and my mom will literally make comments about my house not being clean enough or if the food isn't exactly how she likes it. like bitch i planned this whole thing for you. i just cleaned my house for you. i cooked all this food for you. what more do you want from me. and the worst part is i'm already so stressed with my own kids and my own life. like i'm trying to keep up with the joneses here, you know? make sure my lawn looks good, make sure my kids are in all the right activities, make sure i don't look like a total wreck when i drop them off at school. and then i have to add planning all these damn family events on top of it. it's just too much. i feel like i'm constantly running on empty. and if i even tried to suggest that someone else help, my mom would have a complete meltdown. like "oh you don't love us anymore" or "we're just such a burden". no mom, you're not a burden, but your kids are grown adults who can help out for once. i just wish someone else would step up. just one time. like greg has plenty of money and time, he could totally host christmas. or my sister could plan thanksgiving. but no, it's always me. always always always. and if i don't do it, no one does it. and then i'm the bad guy. i'm the one who doesn't care about family. it's just so frustrating. and i'm so tired of it all. i just want one weekend where i don't have to worry about everyone else for once. just one. is that too much to ask.