I’ve been going to this church literally my whole life, you know? Like my grandparents went there and my parents go there and we’re just always there every Sunday and Wednesday night stuff and like, it’s not bad, I guess. It’s just… it’s a LOT, and everyone knows everyone and everyone knows what everyone else is doing, you know? Like, if I ever got a tattoo, my mom would know before I even got home, which is fine but also like, sometimes you just want to DO something without everyone commenting on it, you know? And it’s always like, “Oh, you’re so good for still going to church, all your friends stopped going,” and I’m just like, yeah, well, I don't really have a choice, it's just what we do. And it's not like I hate it or anything, it's just… sometimes it just feels like a performance, especially with the music and stuff. And so last Sunday, after communion, Mr. Henderson, he's like 78, really sweet guy, always has a Werther’s Original for me, even though I'm basically an adult now, which is nice. He got up to the mic, like he always does for hymn requests, and he suggested “Amazing Grace,” which is like, a classic, you know? And our music director, Ms. Jenkins, she’s like, kind of new, like she started maybe a year ago, and she just did this… this HAND gesture, like a flick of her wrist, you know? Like a “Pfft, whatever” kind of thing. And it was so fast, and I don't think anyone else really noticed, but I did. And Mr. Henderson, he just kind of… sat down really quick, and he looked kinda embarrassed, like he’d said something stupid. And it wasn't even about the hymn, really, it was just… he’s been going there forever, and he just wanted to sing a hymn, and she just totally blew him off like he was annoying. And I just kept thinking about it all day, like, it was such a small thing, but it just felt so mean, and for what? And I know it's not a big deal, like, I shouldn't even be thinking about it this much, but it just made me feel so… angry, I guess? Like, who does she think she is? And it just kinda made me question everything, like, is this what church is now? Just a bunch of people pretending to be nice and then being secretly rude? And it just kinda takes the shine off everything, you know? Like, you go there to feel good and then something like that happens and you're just like, what's even the point? And I can't even tell my mom because she'd be like, "Oh, Mr. Henderson probably didn't even notice," but I saw it. I totally saw it. And it just makes me feel like, tired, I guess.