I just… I don't even know why I'm typing this. (Stupid to even bother, prolly.) My mom just passed a few months ago, and honestly? It's like a huge weight's gone, but now I feel guilty even thinking that. And now what? My kids are grown, out of the house… and suddenly I got nothing to do, just staring at these damn walls. My whole life was taking care of somebody, first my kids, then her… and now I'm just… sitting here. Alone. What the HELL am I supposed to do now?