i don't know if this counts but like my boss wants me to take this director thing right but all i can think about is how everyone else in my team is always like talking behind peoples backs about every little thing and i just keep imagining them doing it to me if i like mess up a presentation or something. it's just so much pressure and i already feel like i'm not good enough i just wanna draw stuff not be in charge of everyone it's so EMBARRASSING to even say that out loud. i think maybe i just wanna stay invisible.