I just… I feel so fucking tired. Like, deep in my bones tired, even after sleeping like eight hours solid, and my mom's been gone three months now, and you'd think that would be enough to catch up, but it's not and I keep thinking "what the hell is wrong with me?" because everyone else moves on, right? And I feel guilty even saying it, but there's this weird emptiness and it’s not just sad, it's just… nothing and everything at the same time and I keep waiting for the energy to come back and it doesn't.