I'm up again. Scrolling thru Behance, Dribbble... seeing their perfect portfolios, the awards, the clients. My stomach just... sinks. All I make is meh. Mom calling from back home asking if I'm "making big money now," if I remember why I came here. Now it's 3 AM. Another night wasted. Another day I'll be tired, useless. Apa guna? For what?