i'm so mad at myself right now and it's because i just scrolled past a photo from that trip to bali a few months ago and i still have them all hidden away on a separate drive and i can't even delete them but i can't let my parents see them either not with everything going on here and my mom just told me about another bill for her meds and i'm thinking about the resort and the stupidly expensive drinks and how i told them I was just visiting a friend in the next county over and how this tiny town we live in everyone knows everything about everyone but somehow nobody knows that I just spent two weeks on a beach somewhere while my parents are working themselves to death to pay for things and it just—