you know when you just feel… not bad, like, but kinda bummed even when something good happens, you know? like today, someone else from my firm won this HUGE competition, like the one with the skyscraper design and the park, and everyone was all over them, and I was genuinely like, 'congrats!' and I typed it in the group chat and everything, but the whole time I was just thinking like, man, I really wanted to be on THAT project, not the one with the parking garage redesign, which is fine, you know, but it’s not exactly like… the Guggenheim or anything. and it's not like I don't think they deserved it, because they totally did, but just sometimes you wish it was you, you know? and you're kinda happy for them but also a little bit like, UGH.