man sometimes you just like— you make a choice, right? and it feels fine, even good in the moment, you know? then you wake up and it's like 7am, sun's barely up, and you're just on your knees in your dorm praying to god not to like, smite you on the spot. literally felt so fucking dirty. all that like, casual hookup shit everyone else does? yeah, not for me evidently. holy FUCK. like why do i gotta be like this? why can't i just— be normal? it's not even a thing most people would care about and i'm here like, begging for forgiveness before my 8am calc lecture. what the FUCK.