You ever just hit a wall, like, totally out of nowhere? Like, you’ve been running on empty for so long, and you don’t even realize it until the thing, the thing that was keeping you going, just… isn’t there anymore. That’s kind of where I am, I guess. My sister, she just moved into her new place, you know, supported living and all that. And it’s good! It’s really good for her, like, she’s so happy, and I’m so glad she’s got people around her all the time now. But it’s also… it’s like my entire schedule just evaporated. Every single day, for years, it was like, classes in the morning, then rush to pick her up, make sure she ate, help with her stuff, get her settled, then try to cram in studying before I passed out. Every day. And now… nothing. And you’d think that’d be great, right? Like, oh, all this free time! I can finally get ahead in my psych classes, or actually go to that student government meeting I keep missing, or even just, like, sleep in past 7am. But it’s not like that at all. It’s just… quiet. TOO quiet. My phone isn’t buzzing with calls from the staff, or her, or the bus service. My calendar is suddenly blank where all her appointments used to be. And instead of feeling relief, or whatever, I just feel this… empty space. This huge, gaping hole where all my energy and focus used to go. And I don’t know what to do with it. Like, I’m 22, I should be, I don’t know, thriving or something, but all I can do is stare at my textbooks and feel this weird ache in my chest. It’s just… you build your whole life around something, around someone, and then they’re okay, they’re settled, and you’re supposed to just switch gears? Like, instantly? I don’t even know who I am without that structure, without that constant need. Like, what am I supposed to DO with all this extra space in my head, you know? It’s not freedom, it’s just… a void. And I feel like a horrible person for even thinking this because she deserves her independence, and I want her to be happy, I really do. But I just don't know what to do with myself now. It’s almost like I miss being so overwhelmed. Is that crazy? I feel like I'm losing my mind a little.