You know those moments when a piece of your past, one you thought was buried deep, just… rears its ugly head? Like a zombie from a bad horror flick, covered in grease and rust, demanding your attention. Yeah, that's my current situation. My dad, the man who practically *built* this town with his bare hands and a wrench, he called me today. Not for a friendly chat, obviously. He wants me to fix one of his old machines. The irony, right? The man was a foreman at the factory for thirty years, practically a legend in these parts — everyone still calls him "Mr. Henderson," even the folks who own the place now. And he wants *me*, his fifty-year-old factory worker son, to fix a machine he designed and probably built himself back when I was still shitting my diapers. It’s like he’s trying to remind me… of something. Of everything.
It’s not just about the machine, though. It’s never just about the machine. It’s the way he said it, like it was a given, like I *should* know how to fix it, like it’s my HERITAGE or something. And the thing is, I probably *can* fix it. I’ve spent more than half my life in that same goddamn factory, working the same lines, breathing the same recycled air. You pick things up. You learn. But it’s not the same. It’s not *his* legacy. He was the foreman, the guy who made things happen, the one with the smarts and the vision. And me? I’m just… a worker. One of many. The son who stayed, who never really left this dusty little town, never really became anything *more*. And he knows it. We both know it. That’s the real kicker.
So now I’m supposed to go over there, to his cluttered garage that smells like old oil and unspoken disappointments, and play mechanic for him. For the man who used to oversee hundreds of us, who could fix anything with a flick of his wrist. And I’ll do it, of course. Because what else am I going to do? Tell him no? Tell him I’m busy? Busy with what, exactly? Another shift doing the same damn thing I did yesterday, and the day before that, and probably for the rest of my life? It’s just… it’s a punch to the gut, you know? A quiet, insistent ache. And I just have to smile and pretend it's no big deal, that I'm HAPPY to help. God, I hate that.
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