Faith doubts: You're Not the Only One

i know this isnt really a big deal its just a thought that keeps buzzing around in my head like a fly i cant swat away i guess im old now 76 in december and maybe thats why everything feels so heavy… …

i watch them sometimes these young parents with their eyes like burnt out coals trying to feed three kids on nothing and i think about the blueprints you know the design supposedly there for all of… …

The pastor, he’s up there, talking about God’s benevolence. …

it’s like a broken record player in there. …

Like, she went to India and there were these people worshipping elephants? …

The whole impossible, crushing weight of it. …

i got this gig for the church (the big one downtown) to paint a mural and it felt like a BIG DEAL like for real a really big deal cause usually my art is just like for school or for my mom to hang on… …

Maybe since I got back from my last deployment, or maybe it started even before that, just quietly, like a slow leak. …

It’s a peculiar kind of cognitive dissonance, isn’t it? …

Does anyone else feel like they’re being ghosted by the Big Guy upstairs or is it just me?

not literally of course, more like a cognitive dissonance that just wouldn't quit... …

I’ve been a deacon at Grace for forty-two years now, which sounds like an eternity when you say it out loud to a stranger, but it feels like...

I am sitting in this humid little room in Istanbul at exactly 4:15 in the morning because the call to prayer woke me up again.

The "Dear Heavenly Father" and the "thank you for these blessings" and I’m just... …

I spent years staring at Trilobites and Tiktaalik while my mother’s voice recited Genesis in the back of my head like a skipping record.

i have been dating this guy for five years and he lives three states away and i pray every night to a god i dont even believe in that he stays right there.