I did something really messed up today. Like, I made someone else miss out on a really big thing, an IMPORTANT thing, because I had to deal with MY stuff. It was about taking this person, this family person, to see a doctor and it just messed up everything. I know it's not my fault they're sick but I hated having to do it and I thought about just... not doing it. And now I feel like the WORST person ever. Like, am I a bad person? I keep thinking about what it means for them, what they lost because of me.