I feel SO BAD typing this but I have to get it out. My mom lives way out of state, like hours away, in one of those fancy places for old people, cause she needs, like, a lot of help now. She’s been there for a while, and my business? It takes up ALL my time. I’m always working, always stressed about money, cause, you know, everything here in the city is SO expensive. Like, rent alone is a whole job, practically. I feel like I’m always running just to stay in the same place. So yesterday, the facility called me. My heart just dropped, like it always does. Every time that phone rings and it’s them, I think, THIS IS IT. Something awful happened. I literally feel like I can’t breathe. But it was just… so stupid. They said mom was having trouble with her TV remote? Like, she kept pressing the wrong buttons and getting frustrated. That’s it. That was the big emergency. And instead of feeling, I don’t know, normal? Concerned? I just felt this HUGE wave of ANNOYANCE. And then immediately, like, pure, hot shame. How could I be annoyed? It’s my mom! She’s old and confused and she probably just wanted to watch her shows. But all I could think about was the meeting I was missing, the emails I wasn't answering, the payroll I still had to do later. Is that messed up? Does everyone feel like this sometimes? Like, I KNOW I should be a better daughter. I should be able to drop everything and go fix a TV remote, even if it means driving for hours. But I can’t. And it makes me feel like such a failure, like a completely worthless person. I just want to disappear. I shouldn't be a business owner if I can't even handle a tiny thing like my mom's TV remote without feeling this... this horrible, ugly resentment. I hate myself for it. I really do.