i finally told someone about it it happened at the retreat the whole time i was there i just kept thinking about that thing that happened at work a few months ago with someone else and how nobody ever said anything about it everyone just acted like it was fine like it didn’t even happen but it did and then on the last night we were all just chilling after dinner some people were talking about home and family and where they grew up and it just made me think about my parents and all the things they expect from me and how i’m supposed to always be the good one the quiet one the one who never makes trouble i don’t even know why i said anything really i just heard myself talking and it all just came out i told them how it made me feel how i just couldn’t stop thinking about it how it kept replaying in my head over and over again they just listened and didn’t say much but it felt different than when i tried to tell someone else before and they just said oh you’re overthinking it or just let it go for once it felt like someone actually heard me i’m sitting in the airport now headphones on no music just trying to be alone my flight doesn’t leave for hours but i just needed to get away from everyone it’s quiet here but my head isn’t quiet it feels lighter but also heavier all at once i guess that’s just how it is now after telling someone it’s just out there now and i don’t know what happens next or if anything even will happen