i just need to say this somewhere bc it’s eating me alive. i graduated like two months ago and i’m living in this tiny studio apartment that barely fits my bed and like two boxes and i’m working at a coffee shop and it's fine. the people are cool the tips are okay. but every single day i wake up and i just feel… stuck. like my brain just stopped working or something. all through college everyone was like "what's your major? what's your plan?" and i always had an answer. i had a plan. but now it's just… a blank. i scroll through linkedin and it’s just endless. like hundreds of jobs i could apply for. but which one? do i even want any of them? i literally studied like three different things in college and now i feel like i know nothing about any of them. or i know enough to know i don't wanna do THAT for the rest of my life. my parents keep calling and being like "how are the job applications going?" and i just lie. i tell them i sent out a few but it's competitive. it's not even competitive bc i'm not even TRYING. i just stare at my laptop. it's like there are too many doors and i can't even pick which one to open. is that weird? does everyone feel this after college? like suddenly you're supposed to just KNOW what to do with your whole entire life. i honestly spend most of my time just trying to figure out what to cook for dinner or if i have enough quarters for laundry. it feels so stupid after spending four years busting my ass and getting good grades. like what was it all FOR if i'm just gonna be a barista forever? which is fine! it’s a job! but it’s not what i imagined. not even close. i just feel this huge pressure but i can't move. i just can't. like i'm literally paralyzed by all the options. i just want someone to tell me what to do. tell me what to want. that sounds so dumb. but it’s true. it really is.