I just had to like, step away. It was so dumb. We were doing this thing, like moving some big stuff and it kinda slipped? Not even a big deal, we just had to like, re-do it. But I just felt... I don't know, BAD. So I ducked behind one of the trailers, you know, like the big ones, and just tried to get myself together. And yeah, I totally wiped my eyes. Like, full on, tears were coming out. For something so SMALL. What if someone saw me? WHAT IF THEY SAW ME. It’s just… this whole gig, it's pretty good money, really. For me. And I kinda feel like I'm in charge sometimes, you know? Like I gotta tell some of the other guys what to do and make sure it gets done right. And I usually DO. I usually know what I’m doing. So when that thing happened, and I just… almost LOST it, I just felt so STUPID. Like, what kind of leader cries over a dumb mistake? Not even a mistake, just like, a snag. I just kept thinking they’d all be laughing at me. Or worse, thinking I can’t handle it. Thinking I'm just a kid, even though I try really hard not to be. They gotta think I'm tough, right? That I know what I'm doing. If they don't, then... what? Then this whole thing could just disappear. And I NEED this. I waited until I knew for SURE no one was looking, then went back out like nothing happened. But inside, man. Inside I just felt so WEAK. Like, how am I gonna be able to do this stuff if I'm gonna freak out over every little thing? It's just... a lot. All the time. And I gotta keep it together. Gotta. But sometimes it just feels like the world is too much and I'm gonna mess everything up and then what.