i swear sometimes I just wanna scream into the void you know that feeling we all get when you’re just DOING everything for everyone and then my brother breezes in like he’s some kind of hero for showing up for christmas dinner when i've been wiping my mom's butt for years literally years giving her meds showering her changing her clothes and he gets all the praise for just existing like what even is that it’s like my entire life has shrunk to the size of her pill organizer and his big performance once a year makes him the star meanwhile I'm just here a background prop a glorified nursemaid and a mom who hasn't had a proper thought that isn't about someone else's needs in god knows how long and i feel guilty for even thinking this like im a terrible daughter and mother and human for wanting more than just… this… it’s a total mindf*ck