Personality masking: You're Not the Only One

you know that feeling when you have exactly thirty minutes to be a human being before you have to go back to being a public utility and instead of like actually resting you just decide to ruin your… …

It’s a systemic feedback loop designed to strip-mine the middle class until there’s nothing left but the bones. …

It’s objectively funny because I’m a woman. …

I’m wearing that heavy black velvet trench coat. …

I remember the first time I put on a rented tuxedo for one of those university donor dinners.

I think we, as humans, need social mirrors to understand our own shape, and when the only mirror you have is a three-year-old who thinks eating play-dough is a peak intellectual achievement, you… …

like a literal cage I would have to step inside of and lock the door and give him the only key for the rest of my entire life until I’m dead and buried in the ground. …

I'm sitting on the floor by the radiator and it's making that clicking sound like teeth hitting a glass. …

It’s exhausting. …

You spend decades building a life, working jobs you hate, and playing the part of the dutiful son. …

I tell my mom it's because of my graduate assistantship and all the research I have to do for my thesis, but that's a lie. …

i just got back from teaching the 8pm hiit class and im sitting in the dark in my honda civic in the gym parking lot and my hands are shaking so bad i can barely hold my lighter like litteral… …

It’s 2:18 AM and the crickets out by the old tractor are doing that rhythmic thing—I think it’s called stridulation, technically—and you’re just sitting there with your face in the blue light of the… …

i have been carrying this around for so long now and i guess i just need to say it even if nobody listens because i feel like such a liar every single week and im almost sixty one years old now and… …

It was the middle of that record-breaking heatwave, nearly a hundred degrees, and there I am in this heavy black velvet blazer and these thick boots. …

i just found an old transcript from a deposition in 2012 and i feel sick to my stomach like physically ill lol i keep reading my own words and i dont even recognize the person talking but i know it… …

i am literally standing behind a furnace in jasons basement right now and i think im actually going to vibrate out of my skin if i have to hear that one techno remix again like i can feel the bass in… …

it was the city's "Rising Star" award ceremony and they gave me the trophy for Best New Chef. …

Because if I stop, the whole house of cards collapses. …

you ever just sit on your floor at 3am staring at a stack of neon green flyers that you spent forty bucks of your own grocery money to print and feel like you might actually vomit. …