Substance hiding: You're Not the Only One

You ever just… you ever just feel like a ghost? …

I poured vodka into my water bottle, you know, the fancy one, like, stainless steel? …

Henderson talks about her damn green juice again, knowing I got rum in my mug and gotta work after school to help my mom pay rent—it just feels like some kinda fucked up joke. …

I keep my mom's old mint tin full of pills in my desk drawer at work and sometimes I just stare at it during my shift, knowing it's like... …

I got this little tin in my desk drawer its one of those old mint tins my mom gave it to me like years ago she used to keep her sewing needles in it now I keep my pills there I work a lot of hours… …

I know this is stupid and I’m probably just being dramatic but I need to say it.

I reach into my canvas bag and my fingers find the cold silver of the flask and it feels smooth and honest and I pour the spiced rum into my coffee and the smell of it is sharp and sweet and it cuts… …

I kept them in a green Wintergreen Altoids tin, tucked in the very back of the bottom drawer of my desk. …

I’m kind of just standing here in the garage and the light is all dusty and yellow like it’s coming through a dirty soda bottle.

i’m only sixteen and everythign feels so big all the time and i just want to draw my pictures and stay in my room but lately i can’t even do that because of what’s happening in the kitchen and the… …