i was there you know at the soccer game screaming like a fuc...

i was there you know at the soccer game screaming like a fucking idiot when my kid scored it was PURE joy for like three seconds this surge of dopamine hit me so hard and then immediately CRUSHING guilt because I knew my old man was just sitting there alone in the goddamn house probably watching some shitty rerun probably needing something but i was too busy being a happy dad for a minute what the FUCK is wrong with me to feel that good while he's just... waiting. it's a fucked up equation this whole sandwich thing makes me wanna just disappear sometimes.

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