i just feel weird tonight you know like a bad kind of weird not just tired or something i left work on time today for the first time in forever you know like my parents are getting older and i gotta check on them more often and my kids are grown they got their own lives but it was weird all my staff were still there talking about finding babysitters and whose turn it was to pick up and one lady was almost crying about missing her kids school play again and another one was saying how she hadn’t slept in days because her baby was teething and they were all just exhausted like really really beat and i just walked out like right at five o'clock on the dot and i didn’t even stay to pretend to help or anything i just said bye and left because i had to go check on mom and dad and i got dinner to make for them and now i’m home and i'm thinking about it and i feel kinda bad like a shmuck for just leaving them there to deal with all that stuff i mean i put in my time i did all the extra hours when my kids were little i know what it’s like to juggle everything but now it’s like i’m past all that and they’re still in the thick of it and i just walked away i mean it’s my job to manage the store not their home lives but still it felt WRONG to just skip out when they were all so clearly stressed and tired and i’m just here watching tv and checking on my old folks who just want me to fix their tv remote again it’s not the same kind of tired is it and i keep thinking about how they were looking at me when i left like i was getting away with something and i dunno i just feel like a real jerk for it even though i earned my time off right i mean i worked hard all these years for this and now it’s here and it just feels bad and i don’t like that feeling at all