you know when like you just feel this thing and it’s kinda BAD but also like GOOD?? my parent passed, finally, after like FOREVER being sick and for a sec there after the doctor said it I felt… quiet. like a really chill quiet. like a meeting just ended and you can finally breathe after like weeks of just trying to nail down this project. and i feel like such an ASS for it like i shouldn't but i can't help it. i mean i loved them but it was just so much. whatever.