Success fears: You're Not the Only One

He’ll miss the mundane magic. …

I got offered the director spot, finally. …

my boss offered me this director thing and everyone's all "congrats! …

a job offer. …

It’s a major publishing contract. …

I just got this job offer, right? …

Okay so here's the thing, it's 2 AM and I'm staring at my manuscript (the one I've been "working on" for like... …

ok so like idk what is happening but my factory foreman just got shortlisted for this huge regional management gig and its a big deal for him and our whole team is buzzing about it because he totally… …

Three months running we've hit it, even busted it wide open once, but then I look at their red figures, flatlining, and it's like a cold stone in my gut. …

It’s 2:17 AM and I’m staring at the damn ceiling, the baby finally down, after like, what, three hours of rocking? …

i know this sounds totally backwards and kinda stupid but im scared to finish my book its been like five years of working on it after everyone is asleep usually between eleven pm and one thirty am i… …

“National Young Designer of the Year. …

I was almost there, like the end of the marathon was a bright light and I could smell the finish line and feel the people shouting and my legs were burning but in a good way, and then this coldness… …

Someone — a someone I used to be, a real goddamn square — decided years ago that “this thing,” this whole writing schtick, was it. …

I keep thinking about the COGNITIVE DISSONANCE that comes with success.

I look like a total BOSS or whatever at the big table but I’m literally a joke—

I’ve been doing this for so long and now this thing happened. …

you know that feeling when you finally get the thing youve been working for like literally since freshman year and instead of being happy you just feel sick to your stomach...

I'm sitting here on the edge of the bed and I can't stop shaking. …

I’m finally on the shortlist for regional management. …